You can go online and go to Christian web sites and request prayer. They have encouraging words and scripture. Try In Touch Ministries, Rock Springs Church, Joyce Meyer Ministries. There are many others . You hang in there. There is a way out for you. If you keep having this you need to see a doctor. Medicine is not the answer for everything but sometimes you need it. You are a special person. No one else is just like you. Jesus loves you and has a plan for your life. Love