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Am i insane, what do you think?
I would like to know if you think I should see my doctor or not. I'm a bit worried about my physiological health. About a year and a half ago I started to get really depressed, with anxiety and stuff, at one point I contemplated killing myself. I went to this clinic where they referred me to a therapist thing but within the next few weeks I started to get better. Now I’m starting to get really depressed again but I’ll have this high, I act really stupid, loud, and crazy and over the top but it could last from half an hour to a few days. When I’m on a low, feeling depressed and really sad, I want to cry all the time, and I do and I don't know why. It’s like jumping from one extreme to another, when I'm sad I’m really sad and when I’m happy, I’m uncontrollable. I think maybe on some level I’ve always been depressed but I put out this fake happy personality so others won’t see my true feelings, like a defense mechanism or something. And I’m not a socially awkward person. I have lots of friends, I make them easily and I’m generally at the center or attention, most people would think that I’m a very confident person, but I’m not really its just like an act, a defense method or something, to cover up the way I really feel. I daydream a lot, and I mean A LOT!!! Its like an obsession, an addiction, I can’t stop no matter how hard try. I will actually stop doing things just so I can daydream because if I haven’t done it for a while then I start to get really irritable. I usually concoct up this story, adding bit by bit every time I daydream, the story is very elaborate, like something out of a movie or book and I'm always in them but more like an improved version of myself, thinner, prettier and happier. It’s kind of like I'm two people or there’s to people inside my brain, one who controls reality, who has to remind the other half that I'm not living in this fantasy world and then the half who controls “fantasy land”, the one that like forgets it not real. Its like an ongoing war inside my brain, ‘reality vs. fantasy’, half of me will be concentrating on my work or whatever I'm doing and the other will be daydreaming, like there’s this daydream continually playing along in the back of my mind and half my brain is trying to push it out put I just keep daydreaming. Sometimes, if I'm doing work or something, ill actually daydream I'm doing the work but in my fantasy story. I just can’t stop even though I want, its like there’s this other part of me forcing me to daydream. Its like half of me craves it and the other half thinks I'm in idiot or something, its really hard to explain, so ill give you an example: half of me has been writing this and concentrating on what to say but the other half has been concocting up more fantasy stories. I really think I'm insane. I get like these obsessions and I get really obsessed, so much it frightens me. For example, the current obsession is Ashley Banjo, and I'm obsessed. These obsessions are almost always the subject of all my stories. I don’t really think I want to be obsessed but half of me craves it, I can’t stop. Its like half of me forgets that this obsession isn’t reality, this fantasy world isn’t true, its not real but the other half has to remind me. And then when I come to the realization of it not being real I get really depressed, like the other night I was literally crying because I remembered that I wasn’t going out with Ashley Banjo, pathetic I know but I cant help it, half of me realizes and the other half forgets and its like each half is battling out for the most dominant position. Like one half wants the other half to believe it and the other half wants the first half to live in reality (confusing I know.) My mood also seems to depend on my mood in the current daydream, if it’s a sad bit in the story then I'm depressed, if I'm angry in the story them I'm angry in real life and if I'm happy in fantasy world, then I'm on another high until I come to the realization that it’s not real. Its driving me insane but I still want to do it. Thank-you so much to all the people who could be bothered to read it, I am sorry about the length. So do you think I should see my doctor or is this the slightest bit normal? Thanks again!!
Asked by lilipads time:2011-05-08 19:38:46
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If you want to learn more go to the link below and see all the meds that the doctor may want to try. Look at the side effects and you can see how the meds worked for others. Abilify is one I would recommend I loved it. It did not state anything about age like the others did. It still does caution for the side effect of self harming. I also did gain some weight on it. Although everyone is different and you should know that just because it happened to one it does not mean it will happen to you. I noticed a change with this med around two weeks into it but everyone is different. Each one will react different to you so know one can tell you how soon. You need to give it at least a month for each med to take its full affect and to reduce any side effect that may be expereniced. As for being concerned I would. But talk to your doctor and ask if you could go to therapy first. If he/she feels that you really need the med then I would take it. It is up to you and your parents though. Hope this has helped you out.
answer: kytteneyes time: 1970-01-13 19:00:52it depends what type they are some, make you loose weight or drop your blood preasure. others make you tired and give you a dry mouth. Dont worry your doctor will make sure, that your taking the right things and probably give you a review to make sure your coping alright with them.
answer: ' lauraaa! time: 1970-01-11 17:00:37I'm 14 and on Paxil and concerta. Paxil is for my depression and anxiety disorders and the concerta is for my ADD( I've been to two psychiatrists and one said I have ADD and the other says its mostly my anxiety) They have helped me a lot. But different meds work on different people. You should try them out and if it doesn't work stop taking them, but don't immediately because of the withdrawal effect that are terrible. You have to slowly lower the dosage. I'm not the best at giving advice but I hope this will help.
answer: ♫God is ಠ_ಠ!♫ time: 1970-01-05 04:00:20I'm concerned that you are only 14 and they are thinking about giving you mind altering drugs before you have fully grown. There are herbs you can take instead. St John's Wort (SJW) is prescribed all the time by orthodox Doctors in Germany - SJW has little side effects and is a powerful anti-depressant and anti-anxiety herb.SSRI's can cause major side effects, weight loss followed by massive weight gain is one. Nausea, upset stomach, increased insomnia and anxiety and an apathetic outlook on life. You may need to look at your diet too - see a nutritionist or at least look/research the vitamin deficiencies which can cause severe depression and anxiety - lack of fish oils (Omega 3) and Vitamin B12 for a start.You don't need these nasty man made drugs. You need some real attention and care instead. Talk therapy is available too. Look at all the options. I would NOT recommend you take synthetic drugs.
answer: Morrigan time: 1970-01-02 15:00:11